ok so i start by the convo last night on msn with some peeps in class. hey if u guys don't want to wear the enthnic costumes then so be it. you all alr have the mentally that no matter what happens, even if the earth comes to an end,no toilets in the world, handphones extinct, u guys still die die won't want to wear right. if that is so then why bother to ask me into the convo. can we force u guys? no. wad. strip you all? i just felt like as a class for only 2 yrs, we should treasure the times we can together. u see, next yr at this time, we'll be having our mock prelims alr, and who in the right mind would want to do their exam in these costumes? i mean is it that difficult to come as a class to do something together? must we always use "must", or "compulsory" then u all will do it? can't u all do some thinking? are u all kids that need to be forced to do things? or is it the singaporean thinking, of following laws and rules? one good example is the "be-yourself-day". and this makes me feels wierd. why do i still claim that "3e3 rocks"?--see that neo in the last post. now, sorry but i seriously DON'T THINK so. i see ourselves as a grp of people who claim ourselves as "the most united class", i mean who doesn't want to, but the way the class is doing, i feel that the only man who's adding water to this plate of sand is mr lee and no one else. how long can this last i wonder. im totally disappointed.
ok enough of that. on a lighter note, THE C'GIRLS MADE IT INTO THE FINALS!!! they won scgs with a score of 44-53 and will be playing at delta sports hall next wed against raffles. yeah again- its been 2yrs ago since zhonghua c'girls made it into the finals[carena's batch]. and it's with the same school. but this time, we will make history. i believe the girls can do it. and i hope that i'll have the time to do up a banner for them! i'll try my best although i've 4 tests next week.
made it dwn to ccab at their 2nd quarter and watched thair match. i was so touched. and im so proud of them. i don't know why but i suddenly felt that why ppl kp critisizing "zhonghua",and sometimes, we ourselves are also guilty of such acts. yet those girls were playing with all their heart in the court with the words "zhonghua" on their backs. i still can't find an ans to my ques. anyway, i feel that the court really shows the quality of a person. their inner-self. today, what i saw in those girls were fortitude, sportsmanship, leadership, trust. thinking back, this group of girls don't look even prepared to go for competition. some complained, one even quitted the team, there were internal conflicts. yet now they've alr come so far to the finals. im just too proud of them! those were tears of joy, and i know that the winning is coming up. =)) girls, im just too proud of u all, i duno how to express myself alr.
and i feel as if im deproving and everyone around me is improving. do u know how it feels when u sit there, seeing everyone enjoying the game, and im the only one who misses shots, unable of rebounds, and more of i duno what.. i know crying doesn't help and i don't care if u guys think ids kiddy or immature. i just can't control those tears and it just came running down.[my tear glands are just too overly developed] and im sorry to those who i've hurt. i mean i don't intend to do so. u know that there's sure body contact in the game and why in the world would i want to hurt my teamates or juniors right. and if any of you guys aren't happy or feel irritated, can u like tell me IN MY FACE. don't go "talking behind my back" in front of me. ok if the last sentence doesn't make any sense, nevermind. i just hope that as a team, ok or even friends, ok or even students wearing "zhonghua" jersey in the court, when i've done anything wrong, tell me straight and i'll try to change. let me know my mistakes, humans aren't perfect.
"what is improve?", "how do you define improvement?", "till what standard is counted as an improvement to you?".
to those, i can't answer any of them. yes you may say improvement is when u have done something better than the last time. so whats deprovement? coach says it's because im playing with a different grp of ppl tts why i feel different. he says im thinking too much and for this period of time he just wants us to enjoy playing the game. however, i seriously feel as if i don't know how to play ball anymore. hais. but still lots of thanks to those who still continue to believe in me, encourage me. thanks bao, kell, eunice and coach for those words, hope that i'll not let u guys and the others down. self-confidence, yes. i think tts what i need.
ok i've been blogging for more than an hr alr. what i want to say shld have been up there. i pray of a better tomorrrow.
yes this is 3e3.
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